A few months ago, I went through a social changing experience that left me in an emotional limbo. That event opened a door to a lot of emotional trauma that I was shifting through and made me question myself. Honestly, for the past decade, I have been going through a myriad of things that built up over time and was never examined. This and other experiences throughout my life came to be that of depression and anxiety (especially social anxiety). As an introvert, I usually keep to myself about my struggle, but this year, I decided to get help.
Inktober 2- Sumi, India, and gold ink
I decided to dive deep and start focusing on healing not only my mental health but my spirit. One thing that I never thought would help me with that process was drawing. Just recently, I started drawing out my thoughts, feelings, and fears. I find myself having more depressive and anxiety episodes than usual. Afterward, I grab my pencil and some paper to just draw out how I’m feeling. I usually draw for fun and now, it’s more therapeutic for me. Drawing with music is also a plus.
Inktober 3 - Sumi, India, and gold ink
This recent experience changed my whole demeanor and how I view everything now – with people and within myself. As I move through this mental fog of emotions, I have drawn some illustrations that depict how I initially felt. All the while I am experimenting with art tools that I use a couple of times a year. I did this during Inktober (October) and since it’s the month of ink, it went coincidentally with my mood as I was at the beginning of a dark place. Oddly enough, it became a series. It’s December now and as the holidays are fast approaching, I will just…keep drawing. I’m still in this fog, beginning to see the light through it—little by little, step by step. But, with that and therapy, I will be ok.
Inktober 4 - Sumi, India, and gold ink
So, as I take this step through the healing process, I am going to take the opportunity to explore and experiment with my work. I will be exploring aspects behind practicing self-love and its relation to my art. Maybe even travel. I will use my pen, brush, or pencil and just express myself with the fluidity of my lines.
Inktober 5 - Sumi, India, and gold ink
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